Thursday, January 14, 2010


Yes, I’m a bit redundant.  It’s still January.  I’m allowed to ponder a new year.  A new year.  A new chance at new opportunities.  A new me.  A new you.  A  new look.  A new self. 

I think I look at New Years as a way to start fresh, but it’s really a new way to look at what you are, who you are and where you want to go from here.

This year I want to focus on bad habits.  I want to be healthier, mentally and physically.  I want to invite structure into my life and embrace it.  I want to set schedules and stick to them.  I want to learn to say No and not feel guilty.  I want to do more downsizing in my life.  Simpler.  Happier? 

I want to be the person I know I can be.  The person that I know I am.  The person that I’ve left behind while getting consumed with things that don’t really matter as much to me.  I need to get on the bandwagon and I need to be my priority.

What makes this year different from any other year?  Haven’t we all made similar statements at the beginning of every year, only to see a handful, but more realistically none, of them come to fruitation?  That’s why New Years Resolutions are such a vicious circle!  I want to make this year different.  I’ve noticed a change in me and the way that I view myself and feel about myself and quite frankly, I’m not happy with what I see.  If I’M not happy, well, obviously I’m not able to make others happy or enjoy things the way I want to.  Here and now, I’m going to change. 

I have 16 months until I finish my degree.  I have several presentations, choices and decisions that need to be made in the very near future and I want to go into them loving myself and feeling confident about myself and my decisions.  I’m going to make it happen.

SO, that being said, Happy New  Year.  Here’s to accepting that we repeat the cycle of crazy but at some point, we wake up and realize, it’s time to move on.


Saturday, January 02, 2010

Hello 2010!

A new decade!  Wow!  I wanted to take a moment and put a few thoughts down about things that I want to accomplish this year.

By the end of this year, I’ll have 4 months remaining on my Bachelors degree.  Child Support will have stopped in May.  There are weddings to go to, trips to plan, languages to learn, goals to strive for.

For the first time I actually made a list New Years day.  I’ve made lots of lists over the years and they usually get lost within the first 5 minutes of putting the pen down.  I don’t want this to happen.  I want to live a better life.  I want to be a better person and my little list starts me out on that path.

Losing 40 pounds is a goal.  Learning to eat better and take better care of myself is going to be a life changing experience.

Budgeting and paying off debt is a goal.  The feeling of seeing my progress really happen is going to be one of the best feelings I’ve ever felt.  The sleeping well that will hopefully follow is going to be AMAZING.

Studying and focusing on school is a goal.  The feeling of getting straight A’s and increasing my GPA to “hopefully” a 3.9 overall and graduation with honors is going to be icing on the cake.  The celebration will be epic!

I’m going to write all the good things and the bad things of this year on here.  I’m going to be honest about my life and the fact is, not everything is always  peachy.  I have struggles.  I have issues.  I’m human.  I think I want everyone to know that there are people that just can’t always put on the “look at me aren’t I awesome” face.  It’s not me.  I’m not going to hide anymore. 

Hello World.  It’s me, Kimberly